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| Friday, November 3, 2006 |
| Positive Me .. Where are You?? |
I was always so optimistic and I always had this bright perspective of life. I had those shiny pink dreams. I'm not the nagging type at all. I'm known by this quality between friends and family. Me, who doesn't accept anyone talking and gossiping around her about Death, Sickness, or Miss Fortune of others. If I ever was doomed with some hard luck, I'd always let loose of the burden I had, of course, with the help of my love ones. Over the years, I learned never to keep any negative feelings inside me .. Everything was great. Life went easy this way. No sorrow .. No nothing .. Just inner peace.
However, lately I lost that source of serenity. My soul and I got isolated .. Friends are ignorant or unaware .. And family is unable to handle me anymore.
I don't blame any of them. I can't handle myself, how can they handle me?! And why would they?! But I wonder, if I was so "spoiled" in taking every depressing feeling outside .. no matter how tiny and silly it was, so .. Where would I take this entire burden to now?! It's scary ..
I reached a point where this repression has reached its height. I'm constantly blue, on the verge of breaking down, my tears are unpredictable and I hit rock bottom with my low down intensity.
I don't like the new me, so gloomy. I always loved the positive, optimistic person in me. Hopefully it's just a phase that'll go away soon. I just have to figure out how to make it go away?!
P.S.
I always considered You the source of all my strength .. I forever ran to You .. I never thought one day You would be the one who sucks my power away .. You broke me into hundred pieces and walked away .. You left me for time to heal.
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posted by LinG-BLinG @ 11:34 PM   |
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You sound like you just broke up with someone dear to you.
What I can recommend is nice walks at the scientific center, especially if its during the day (when not hot)
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its not a break-up or anything like that .. acctually i don't know what it is & i don't know what to call it. but ur suggestion seems so cool & benifitial ;) u bet i'll try that .. thnx
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Dearest WaWa :)
Believe me, whatever u're going through right now, is just a phase in this melodiouse life, that doesn't know one rythm . . . Smtimes it's sad, smtimes it's happy, sometimes it's slow, sometimes it's fast !
Everyone goes through phases in this life, faces ups and downs, and about losing ur strength, and reaching rock bottom . . . let me tell u, u'll get up and stand still on ur both lengths, feeling stronger than before and more confident than ever!!!
It's only about time, and as they say " C'est La Vie "
Cheer up Hon ... I'm one of ur friends who's not ignorant about ur feelings, and is right behind u to catch u when u're about to fall :)
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You sound like you just broke up with someone dear to you.
What I can recommend is nice walks at the scientific center, especially if its during the day (when not hot)